Melissa (walkin_by_faith) wrote,
Melissa
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...Decisions...

I've been considering how to write this for days now… Do I just come right out and say it? Do I explain my reasons first? I never thought I'd have to say these words…I never planned on having the unexpected feelings of pain, hurt, betrayal, and of being deceived for so very long. Where do I find the words to explain my heart?

After contemplating this for days, I've decided to just tell you all straight up:

I'm leaving CCSE.

Many of you may not know of the problems that have arisen at the church over the past few months... and have recently been revealed this week. Please, PLEASE pray for the body--there is alot of pain and hurt going on.

I have grown up at CCSE. It's my home. It saddens me to see it torn apart. My decision has caused a rift between my childhood friends and I. I know they do not agree with me. They wouldn't say it to my face, but they do.

"For am I now seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of God." (Galatians 1:10 ESV)

I have not made this decision because of any other reason than God telling me too. I am not leaving because my parents are… They would have respected my decision to stay. I am PERSONALLY choosing as an individual to leave CCSE. It is my decision—and one that I struggled with. I almost convinced myself to stay and ignore what happened, but my heart will not allow me. I am very confident in my decision. I have faith that God will also bring me back to CCSE someday. But there is much breaking He needs to do in all of us before that day. There will be much more pain and heartache, but I have confidence that the Lord will bring us out of this storm.

The LORD is my shepherd; I shall not want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures.
He leads me beside still waters.
He restores my soul.
He leads me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
(Psalm 23:1-4 ESV)


So, I will be attending Calvary Gresham until the Lord leads me somewhere else. After thinking and praying about it, I also decided to continue to attend College and Career group on Tuesday nights.

"The Lord bless you and keep you, the Lord make his face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord lift up his countenance upon you and give you peace." (Numbers 6:24-26 ESV)

May the Lord protect you all in the months and the trials that are ahead. He will be ever faithful to heal what has broken!

Now to him who is able to keep you from stumbling and to present you blameless before the presence of his glory with great joy, to the only God, our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion, and authority, before all time and now and forever. Amen.
(Jude 1:24-25 ESV)


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